Another Breast Feeding issue!!

What a week!! Finally settled into our fab'new home, and Lachys cold didn't turn into anything more than a cold!Yay!! Unfortunately he hasn't pooped for 7 days now! :(   I know bubbys can go for a while not going, but he screams with every attempt and has been refusing his booby juice!! It's been heart breaking!!

 And with that experience i have to, not apologize, but maybe admit my lack of...empathy maybe (Is that the right word)??  I'm not a militant breastfeeding mama.  If you can't, for whatever reason, i believe that that's totally ok!! (Even if you simply choose not too, that's up to each parent!).  I'v had a few friends that have had to give up breastfeeding for their own reasons, and i was (i hope) full of supportive comments for them.

 I'v heard their thoughts of feeling like a failure, but yesterday i was finally able to understand it to a smaller degree!! It's not just the feeling of failing because 'breast is best', it's a feeling of not being able to provide for your child, and of your child rejecting you, and losing that bond that you had through breastfeeding!  And thinking that you've lost that connection with your baby, and wondering what your doing wrong, and thinking why doesn't my baby want me anymore??!!(and probably a lot more that i didn't encounter in my 12 hour drama)  And i only had to experience that for a day! (Fortunately my boy has kinda decided that i'm not so bad after all)

So hats off to those women in my life (you know who you are) and even those that aren't, breast or bottle, you've soldiered on and both you and your bubbys are smiling and happy!!  That's what matters and you've had the strength to get through it with grace!!  (Haha, i'd have made such a good 'woman hear me roar' hippy!).  So yeah, i just wanted to say, you guys rock!!

Id also like to brace ya's all for more photos to come....I HAVE MORE FABRIC!! I'm gunna be attempting my b/feeding pattern again with a slightly heavier fabric and in a smaller size, and hopefully i can refine it a bit!!  Not to mention more photos of my delicious wee man, hopefully smiling and with empty bowels!!
Have an awsum Wednesday!!!

Ps: I'v been walking!! Its great...Lee jeans here i come!!
Pps:  It was hubbys first fathers day, which he had to work so i thought we could pxt him his first fathers day message!! Excuse the old phone photo quality, but i love my old faithful phone and refuse to upgrade cause i wouldn't be able to work a fancy new phone don't want to! :)

At our 7am feed :)

Getting hungry...Nom nom nom!

The breast feeding issue!!!

 One of the things i love the most about being a mommy is the fact that i am able to sustain my child from my own body!! In spite of my body hang ups, and the bits that don't always work like they should (i'm sure dodgy hips and knees shouldn't be an issue till i'm 90ish??)  My body is keeping 2 humans functioning, and doing the most fantastic job!! My wee lads getting bigger and heavier (same here :( !) and is happy and healthy!!!

  So whats my issue??? Finding something to wear!!!  While maternity clothing is abundant and affordable, actual nursing tops and dresses etc aren't!! Don't get me wrong, their are some beautiful b/feeding tops out there, but without a spare 70 + dollars there's just no way any of these tops are going to be gracing my wardrobe!!  While ye ole faithful b/f singlets have been essential and wonderful, i'm hardly going to head out doors in the middle of winter in them!!  And so my search for affordable b/f tops begins!!

  So far i'v found 2, and i had to fight for them on Trade me, but it was worth it!  They were still well below retail price and in awsum condition!!  But now iv hit a wall!!  Google turns up a whole lot of amazing sites to search, but none that offer affordable nursing wear in my price range!!  It's like there's a huge gap in the market for those of us that are, for whatever reason, unable to spend a fortune on a new wardrobe, or even a single new item of clothing!! What to do??  I'm not looking for anything fancy or dressy, just something that doesn't expose my tummy/back/boobs when i'm feeding my lil one!!

  And so my overactive imagination has thought of a possible solution....I'm going to try to make my own!!  I'v seen a lot of basic wrap/crossover tops that are fabulous for nursing bubby, and the design looks fairly basic so i'm thinking this will be a good place to start.  A nice shaped top that hopefully wont be beyond my limited machine skills!  If i use a cheaper fabric to start with then any failures should still work out cheaper than buying a new top (hello Fabric Barn)!

  So my aim is to make this my project for the week and see how i go!! Keep an eye out for piccys of my progress....or lack of!! I'l be posting about any results be they successes or failures!!
  In the mean time if anyone knows of any websites with nursing clothes on the lower end of the price scale i'd be very keen to hear!!